Lost, and Found

I quite randomly found the following passsage today, written during my first year in Prague, during the first baby steps of Impressions.

Was like meeting a distant friend I had forgetten about.

I love the last sentence. It really makes me see just how far I've come.

Funny how much can change, yet stay the same.

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Feb 07

There are several words of wisdom I have tried to live by over the years, one of which may stand out among all. In the eternally relevant words of Confucius, “the Superior Man lives by ruling his Desires, the small man by receiving special favors.”

Yet despite the years of master plans, I realize that I am sadly ruled much more by the passing whimsy of the wind than I am of any personal determinations.

My so-called sense of discipline has become almost laughable in the face of neglected friendships, unfulfilling commercial employment, and seemingly incoherent volumes of personal work.

As un-insightful as it may seem, I have come to surrender to the notion that nothing really means much of anything.

Hopefully, one day I will have worked it all out, but in the meantime, I continue to fake it, pretending I know what I’m doing when, inside, I’m just going where my photos take me, trying to make sense of it all when it’s done.